There is always sun after the rain
Today it was a rainy day, a day at the seaside up north, where it’s almost never too warm. I was glad my girl slept well although she was again upset and wanted to go home in the middle of the night. This place still does not look familiar to her after 3 days here, even if I‘m with her most of the time. Sticking to her usual routine and many familiar things from home are apparently not enough.
But her mood in the morning, even when her nose is a bit stuff, is catching. She is just happy to see you and that is a good sign she slept okay.
Breakfast was chaotic as usual here so far, with rules for order, with table numbers and lots of places to clean your hands. I wonder why they serve the same cheese and salami at the buffet. I would surely use a variation, maybe even an omelette or something more creative. But at least my little girl likes her cheese and butter on a slice of bread.
Luckily the Kita was open today and I could take her there although she was a bit reluctant. But when she found a toy and another kid to play with, I could leave…The educators there seem a bit cold and stiff, but they say they have quite some experience with home-sick kids, so I decided to give them some credit.
The problem with too much time for yourself is that you don’t know exactly what to do with it. We are so busy in our everyday life with things to do and we feel so important knowing we have something to solve that we don’t realise how dependent we are from this activity and how little time for ourselves we have left.
So I grabbed my phone and surfed a bit to get in touch with things. I know it should be an Internet detox phase, but I just can’t do it. Okay, I have decided not to work from here, but a few connections to my reality or my virtual world where most of my friends and family are active can’t be avoided. Especially since I don’t have too much communication around me and everybody seems to mind their own business, more or less.
Indeed this is THE time to spend with my daughter, with myself, to look within and search deep for my beliefs which shape my thoughts which determine my actions, my experiences which in end, reiterate my beliefs. The MINDSET wheel, right?
I just feel I need some support for that, like some sort of framework or structure to build upon…I hope I will find it somewhere, some day…
Anna is glad to have found a friend, a bigger girl who sits at our table when we eat (tables here have numbers) and we mostly talk to her. Her mom is too busy chatting with the other moms whose talking noise is too much and quickly for me to follow. I don’t even bother; many things they say are so superficial I’m sure I am not missing anything. But the girl is nice, very reactive to my little girl and Anna feels that. She is looking forward to meeting her friend for meals.
In the afternoon the sun came out, strong and warm like on a beautiful summer day and you could never tell we were so up north in the Northern Hemisphere. So we went out and played in the sand, Anna climbing all the big kids’ sliders or splashing water in the fresh new rain spots.
After all, it is just a perfect moment to end the day and find the peaceful state of sleep.
Util the next day of journaling, take care and be safe!